Monday, 14 March 2016

William Golding, Rites of Passage (1980)

William Golding won the Booker Prize for the novel that is the first in his To The Ends of the Earth trilogy. The trio of novels focuses on a ship bound for Australia in the early nineteenth century and the cast of characters aboard. Rites of Passage relates the tale of the aristocratic Talbot, his shame for failing to prevent the public humiliation of a parson and the event's consequences. It's a fairly simple story but Golding relates it powerfully and he uses the novel to explore the notions of shame, class and savagery. 

Edmund Talbot displays his aristocratic tendencies from the start. He is the tale's narrator and it is from his point of view that the reader sees events unfold in the form of daily journal entries. Golding describes Talbot's interactions with valets and other members of the ship's crew, as well as his palpable shock when the captain does not show him the respect he feels is due to his rank. Talbot is portrayed as a pompous upper class ingenu with a strong sense of his own self-importance, however his attitude is abruptly transformed once he realises that his position means little to the ship's captain Anderson. Talbot annoys the captain and unwittingly sets in motion a chain of events which lead to the very public humiliation of the parson Mr Colley. Golding taps into the fear of being responsible for the suffering of another, and portrays Talbot's consequent feelings of personal shame.

Golding's novel raises a number of questions about class and hierarchies, and what happens when the unwritten rules that keep these boundaries in place are transgressed. The people on the ship are stratified, with the poorer passengers not being permitted to mix with Talbot's class on the upper decks.  The crew also warn the upper class passengers against mixing with those from the lower classes for their own safety. Colley goes against these warnings and his attempt to bring Christian worship to the lower classes ultimately leads to his disgrace. The mini model of the British class system that is constructed on board does nothing to prevent Colley's downfall and Golding uses Talbot to further criticise it, with him disapproving of some of the ship's officers for having risen from ignoble ranks.

Golding also portrays the theme of human savagery, one that is explored in one of his more famous novels, The Lord of the Flies. Colley's description of the ship undergoing a transformation prior to the start of his ordeal mirrors the terrifying transformation that a human collective can undergo when facing unusual circumstances and how the social conventions that protect us from one another can very easily break down.

This is not one of the better Booker novels in my opinion. It took a while for me to get into and, although it seemed very authentic, I sometimes found the nineteenth-century English language to be difficult to understand. However, once the narrative shifts to Colley it becomes dark and captivating. Golding has crafted an interesting tale that makes us all question how responsible we are for the bad things that happen to others.

Sunday, 3 January 2016

A new year, an update

Happy 2016 everyone!

I mostly write about my running activities in my blog and not about what's been happening to me.  Today's post will be a bit of both.

Over the last year I have experienced depression and anxiety, which culminated in me undertaking cognitive behavioural therapy and counselling as well as taking antidepressants.  I wouldn't say that all of these have been universally effective and I still have occasional bad moments but in general this has helped me to see things from other perspectives and to cope better when I get anxious or have low mood.  I am seeing my doctor next week and will talk to her about the process of coming off the medication; I don't want to relapse but I am aware that the pills have had an effect on my personality over the last year and I would like to try to get back some of the more positive aspects of myself that I feel I have lost to the drugs.  

I have learnt that running is one of the best ways to keep these negative feelings at bay, but also being active and doing things, even getting up and having a shower, really help to dispel the blues.  I find writing really helps too, so I will be updating this blog more regularly about more interesting things in future.

My running achievements over the last year have been considerable; my ability to only live in the moment means that I often forget what I have done, so I want to summarise this here so that I will remember.  In 2015 I run four half-marathons (Reading, Surrey Badger, Porto and Royal Parks) and I feel that I have grown in stature and experience with each one.  Porto was the most challenging, having never run in such hot conditions, but it was also great to run with my fellow London Frontrunners.  I have done lots of training with them over the year and I think I have really improved my stamina, cardio and speed during this time.  For proof of the improvement in speed, my time for the Royal Parks half was nine minutes faster than my time for Reading!  I also ran a few cross country runs and hope to do more of this, as I found them challenging but very fun, enjoying as I did running with my fellow Frontrunners.  I have also decided to take more of a part with the running of the London Frontrunners, so this year I am getting involved with the organisation of our annual international trip.  The destination is top secret but needless to say it will be an amazing experience and I am really looking forward to being a part of that!

So I have a lot to look forward to this year, and while last year has had its ups and downs, I feel that I have learnt and grown in a lot of ways.  I look forward to having the opportunity to have more fun, learn more about myself and improve on my running in 2016.

Wednesday, 16 December 2015

Training Run 73

Tonight's training session was gruelling.  Manu lead it and she always works us hard!  Tonight we were practicing running uphill again, but interval sessions this time and we were working in pairs.  While I ran up and down the hill in a pyramid set of one short, one long and one short up and back run, my partner Blake undertook various exercises, including squats and spotty dogs, and then we would switch over.  We did six sets of this and I was absolutely exhausted at the end, though I noticed that my cardio was keeping up with the exercise even when my body had nothing left.  I have definitely improved my cardio capacity over the last year and I am really pleased with myself.  I know that at the beginning of the year I simply wouldn't have been able to complete tonight's session.  Thanks to everyone at the club who has helped me get to this level!

Monday, 14 December 2015

Training Run 72 - 5.6 miles, 9.01 km, 45'23''

Tonight I did a shorter version of my usual Monday run, along the South Bank to the peace pagoda in Battersea Park and then back again.  December is a bad month for training, I have eaten and drunk too many good things and this has made me feel sluggish and unhealthy.  Tonight's run was tough but I am glad I did it, as I want to keep my running ticking over, at least for now; I suspect that there won't be much running going during the last two weeks of the year!

Saturday, 12 December 2015

Training Run 71 - 4.26 miles / 6.85 km, 33'52''

Today is the day of the Frontrunners Christmas party, so later on we will all be going out, eating and drinking a lot and generally having a good time.  This morning I ran with the guys once around Hyde Park - I didn't want to do anything too strenuous today.  It was good to get out in the fresh morning air and just run as fast as I could at times, it really blew all the cobwebs away.  My body felt ok and I didn't have any of the niggly aches or pains that I have suffered from during the last year.

Wednesday, 9 December 2015

Training Run 70

Wednesday night means training, but tonight's session was impromptu as the person who was supposed to be leading the session did not turn up!  So we ran around Primrose Hill in loops for exactly 30 minutes, doing some parts fast and other parts at jogging pace, in order to teach us how to better maintain stamina over long periods.  It felt like very hard work (all those Christmas drinks and chocolates are beginning to tell!) but at the end I knew I had done something tough and been able to get through it.

Monday, 7 December 2015

Training Run 69 - 7 miles / 11.27 km, 58'37''

I ran my usual Monday evening run, along the South Bank, around Battersea Park and back again.  I suspect this may be one of the last times I do this run in 2015, what with Christmas coming up.  Tonight's run was good, I ran alone and enjoyed the speed and solitude after how busy everything has been lately.